Bismillah, the last post was on early 2017. I havent share to you guys bout the whole 2017 en? Its just tergantung there. Let me share with you what happen through out 2017.
Akhmal Roslan? Why do I mention him? Because my latest post was about him.
What happen to him after that?
Yeah, we got back together after that, as usual lah kan? But it doesn't last long. On June 2017, I caught him cheating. For the past 4 years, I knew my Akhmal. He doesn't even know how talk with girls. I knew him. Everyone that knew him said the same thing. But after I saw a picture of him with another girl, fuck it broke my heart like completely. Don't ask me what kind of picture, biarlah I je tahu. But how stupid I was, I still wanted to stay. I still begged him to stay. I called him again and again even he doesn't want to picked up the phone. I fell asleep in tears, skipped my Sahur that time.

I didn't know if akak even perasan my eyes or not the next day. But I tried hard to keep it to myself, because it's me who choose to be with him. No matter what people said, I still wanna be with the man that I love, so I have to face the consequences alone. Its okay. But what made me gave up after all this years?
One night, I called him again but he still doesn't wanna picked up the phone. I spammed him. I wanted to see him so bad and I knew if I met him that night everything's gonna be back to normal. I made a scene, I spammed him saying  people trying to pecah masuk my house and I'm alone that night. He picked up his phone and scolded me. He doesn't want to see me or even talk to me and he hanged up the call. I knew from that day that he doesn't want me anymore. He doesn't even care. Okay, I left him again.
The very last we were happy together is when we went to Melacca together, celebrating his birthday and our 4th anniversary. I thought we were doing just fine. I thought our short getaway fixed all our doubts. I was wrong. We didn't meant for each other anymore. Both of us, doesn't want the same things anymore. My heart, completely died for him. Its been 4 years and same things keep happen again and again. Memang mati hati guys, tawar hati lama lama kita face benda sama yang tak berubah. Why stay if he doesn't even want it with you? I make my move and its been almost 3 months I stopped seeing and contact him. Ada je dia dm me on instagram, i never replied not even one. Because I already make my decisions. I've been hurt so many time, physically and mentally.
Tapi tipu kalau I completely forget him. Akhmal Roslan is my first love. And I'm grateful that I met him. He teach me everything in life. But its okay guys, Akhmal already found himself a new girlfriend. As long as his happy, I'm happy too.